Gurbani,fake babas,understanding sikhism

Following my religion(sikhism)
Today my mind inspired to write my thoughts because good thoughts hardly come only when you read gurus bani and you are so inspired and touched by Gurus bani when you are in the initial stages of loving your religion which is eductational and inspirational that we didnt hardly knew.I just start getting up early 3mths ago early say to do my NITNEM(this was instructed by our guru to do it everyday
0 and if I would have some understanding before of GURBANI then guru would have never abandoned me.When I was younger I use to recite japji sahib rehras sahib and also Sukhmani Sahib but all did either i was in pain or need something from god or angry at god,but never try to get the true knowledge inside.Nowadays as I reading the meanings what SRI GURU GRANTH SAHIB JI is actually asking us to do I came to know the true meaning of life and believe me also the happiness or fulfillment i receive when I came to know what gurbani is saying.This is nobody mistake becaue if we would have focus a little on gurbani and try to learn it when young I hope wouldnt have felt like this.Nowadays even we have shabads videos in youtube or internet you can search in which you can see what ragis are singing is being translated in english and punjabi languages etc. for the people to understand.One of my friend said ,before most of us just look at the faces of ragis and try to make out what they were singing.Some things you understand and some you never.SGGS is the knowledge of mind and what we study in schools ,colleges ,universities is the knowledge of body,because we all these degrees diplomas you do may get you a good status,life,money,etc.but this knowledge will end once you get busy in the life.But there is this knowledge in SGGS which will give your mind the status which the mind needs and which our mind has forgotten.This status can be achieved by anyone following on guru path and panth.However your mind would have or would have forgotten the status or happiness you received when you got some Doc,MBA etc.degree.But ask your mind again after completing your education lets do it again after 10yrs and your mind will say :FORGET IT ARE YOU CRAZY".I am not saying you should not study or achieve any degrees but if we would have also try to learn what gurbani is saying and also doing studies i can surely say everything would have been so easy.When we have to sit in exams some of us get up early as that is the best time when your mind is relaxed and you can grab things easily.But now you think for yourself why guruji asks us to get up early and do our NITNEM.

Now what I learnt in my 34th year of life is that when I start my prayers 3 months ago was something I always missed which was so close to me felt so far away.I was about to go insane before that just clubbing,drinking,enjoying life etc.At that time my mind also knew that what I was doing is wrong but still u do because ur mind is in god hands and he wont let u come near god until and unless he wants,but that doesnt mean that it is gods will to make u like this. No that is completely wrong because at that time also your mind or you can say god instructs this is wrong but still we keep on doing and try to forget it.He is there with you at that time also but only if knew the knowledge which is in SGGS we would have dont that mistake once twice and after that just forget it. but we keep on doing because we just keep things in mind but keep repeating the same mistakes again and again.Sometimes when we get up drunk and say today i will not go for drinks no matter what happens but still we go later.My point is may be you say that your mind instructs you to say like this but sometimes we just forget what mind is saying and says" whatever happens let it happens who cares".Now after you start gaining knowledge through various means reciting prayers ,listening to kirtan,listening to kathakaars like maskeen ji,pinderpal singh ji,etc. etc.,reading books on gurbani etc.you come to know the true SIKHISM is based upon .There is no personal stories or biographies of any of this world rulers written in SGGS,everything is about life and what should be done with ur life and not to mention how to really enjoy your life in the true sense.Now what my mind once said while I was doing paath after first month and this thought came to my mind in an instant that this is what I like and this is what I want.Then I start understanding the meanings of GURBANI in the internet and listening to various tapes and lectures of GURBANI kathakaars to understand the true concept of life.One thing to mention is if you newly started reciting gurbani ,try to understand the meanings and then only you will know the true essence of SGGS.Knowledge is power.Try to get as much knowledge about your religion and then if you stuck at some point try to get the answer first from within and still stuck try to find it by talking to someone which is in your sense the true GURSIKH and no need to go to some pakhandi babas or anybody ask you to go there and here to get your answers.Every answer is there in SGGS only you need to recite GURBANI and understand.I think there are so many true GURSIKHs or u can say BABAJI all around us which have knowledge and can give you answers but we always try to talk to that person which is boasting that he has attained salvation when he has not.First we need to make our mind that if we have wasted so much life finding the true path and now if we are stuck with any fake babas then nothing good is going to happen because then you better carry on with your old life.I can give you one example if you sometimes are stuck with any question regarding sikhism or your religion and want to know something just do your paath and ask god wahegure,pls explain me this thing and whatever good things you are understanding or god want u to understand will help you understand and if you know that in your mind something is rite in this point and something you dont want to understand or is called manmat.whatever good things being explained is gurmat but we listen to manmat more because what gurmat says is true and truth is sometimes hard to digest.The gurmat status is one which anyone can achieve and believe me is also one of the toughest to achieve because everything in gods hands whether you will get some repect and that is why we need to pray everyday to get some respect in his eyes so that we are not abandoned again.I think you will understand if you start saying your NITNEM everyday.As our gurbani says you just need to take one step towards waheguru and rest he will do.First make your mind becuase if you are doing it to achieve something other than god then everything will not fall in place.Just say your prayers that oh god give me some knowledge of yours and he will give you if u say and as everybody says with a true heart to the true GOD WAHEGURU.....but dont say to any fake babas or pakhandi saadhs first.ask your waheguru first and you wont need anyone else.GURBANI says every person will is in his own hands then why we need to go to somebody to achieve GOD when you have Dhan SRI GURU GRANTH SAHIB JEE in your hands which has so much knowledge that nothing comes close.I just do my nitnem banis and have got so much knowledge.You will get your answers to all your questions from SGGS and no other books can provide that.You can read socilogy,pyschology,science etc but all these subjects came into being later but our GURU ji allready mentioned eveything.